I think I’ve used this title before, at various points in this blog’s (actually rather long) history. Usually it’s a conscious decision to leave something behind and embrace something else from that point onwards, although it doesn’t always work out the way that I plan.
The choice to leave ChiGarden quiet for almost three months was due to general procrastination which then evolved into the question – why am I doing this anyway, and is there something else I could be spending time on that will have more impact? The fact is that by your standard metrics for a ‘successful’ blog, this one is a bit of a failure. With 440 posts over six years, I think I have perhaps a handful of consistent readers (mainly friends), plus a few people who drop by via Twitter or Pinterest sporadically. Sometimes I feel as if I’m projecting these thoughts into the void and no one really cares but me, which is both saddening and freeing at the same time.
My main aim with this blog has always been to mess around with website layouts, improving photography and writing skills, and keeping a journal to look back on. It still serves that purpose, but there are other pockets of the internet where I can funnel my energy with more focus and move toward more tangible goals than internet fame and validation from strangers. Focus is my theme for this year – more on that another day – and I’ve found with writing at I’m trying to spread myself too thin.
I thought I’d maybe announce a hiatus on ChiGarden for the year whilst concentrating on other endeavours, but I’ve found that I’ve missed simply journalling about whatever grabs my interest! Here I can be free to pretty much write a stream of consciousness without worrying about crafting a personal brand or furthering particular goals.
So I’ll still be writing here, although posts might be sporadic, less frequent and possibly less ‘crafted’ whilst I shift my priority elsewhere. I think this space will always be too important and cathartic for me to let it go entirely! Thank you to that handful of loyal readers who keep stopping by to read my meandering words.
Do you ever stop to wonder why you continue to do something – whether it’s out of habit or because you actually need it?